Never used to stare


I never used to stare at anyone's picture before. Now I do, all the time. 

Yeah, it's true. I bring up pictures of you on my phone and immerse myself in my mind with you right next to me. I swim in pictures, and posts, and videos of you. I consume all your content just so I can spend a few more moments with you around, even if in memory -- because you are so far, and I yearn. 

I sometimes like to drown in that hypnotic state, to learn more about you, and myself, and us. Love soaks through every part of my body and mind and brings me closer to you, almost closer. I can't not be around you for too long. Your pictures, your smiling face, your squinted glee filled eyes say to me "I'm right here, almost there, with you".

The pain of separation always eases; I put you in my pocket and carry on. 

I love you. I miss you. I always keep you close.